One step back or one step forward

simple motions.

You look at your life and what do you see, a reflection, a mirror. a pretense  or do you see the image you believe is your role in life. is it up to standard and up to what was said to be done by you. are you happy of what you have done so far, accomplished, in the short or very long time you breathe here are you capable of standing up to yourself and saying "i am happy with my life and have no REGRETS"


do you think you justify that, or could you have done more, now your in this slow rotting predicament. could things have changed. do people even care, do you even care, of course you care. you are your own body mind and soul. but they do say mind over matter.


do you think you have adapted the social normality that this society has instructed you to follow, did you follow the orders of your parents/guardians to be the ten year you always have to, you are exactly how they want you to be in their eyes of how society wants them. you never had a choice to change that about yourself or did you ????





what do you think if you did change the way you lived your life, would it be better would you influence your own path make your own memories, which not to be snatched and re-evolved, so your at a turning point, your freedom is just beggining, but what do you do with it, i guess you lost the power and independence from your parents because of your choice, so now what. one step forward and you can make something of yourself. one step back, and you are indeed the societies ROBOT BABY.



one step forward with little change in your pocket, scared of what awaits but isnt that the adventure you wanted, you dont have to ask permission, you are your own self, you carry your own head. your are the bred winner the decision maker. i say go for it, what you got to loose self respect and shame regret for not trying. REGRET that you didnt do it, hard time will come but yet better times will dissolve them memories.


challenge yourself to better things, make new rules, break them, stick to them, apply how you see fit. make friends dont make friends, have fights, re conciliate, move on the space is longer, time is shorter,




but its up to you remember,

one step back or one step forward.


breaks many barriers.



Rhiannon.
(undecided)
but processing the possibilities.

2012 and all thats in it

well i say we need catching up various things have happened since the last time i put a blog, relationships have started and ended, new jobs have came and gone, i've done a foundation degree in forensic science and got a graduation in november, im learning how to fly a plane, family have moved back to england so i may not be returning to holland as much now, i've met the past and now looking into the future. this is just a short blog to say that alot has happened in 2012 and that's it gone way to fast but i think this is also good because there are things that i dont want to go back to, im not looking forward in to the next coming months and the new year where hopefully im making a change for everything. :) have a lovely day. x