wishing everyone a happy new!

hey everyone, i hope you all had a great christmas, i really did, we went round to our aunties for christmas day and it was lovely. i had such a fun time, actually this christmas was probs the first time i didnt drink lol as i was designated driver which i dont really mind, because as my mum has done so much for me, its the least i could do lol. umm so the grandparents came down boxing day which meant more presents lol and then seeing my dad tomorrow with my brother lol hardcore times. and then it shall be new year yo. so the plans are to get trollied i hope and this i wont be driving lol, it should really funn i can wait. and naomi had beeen down been really nice i havent seen her in a few days but i dont mind because it just great to seee her when ican, new years which will be when i will see , the rio and nayy adventures begin. well i hope you all have great holidays. eat well be safe. rhiannon

Merry Christmas

merry christmas guys, hope you have a great new year as well, so im of from college and will be off until the 14th jan which is nice, my friend naomi come back fromk uni 2 days ago we all went out last night and had some giggles. :D not much to say really, except im happy and my car is doing fine, bf is doing fine, frinds are great family are doing fine, all in all good times, so hopefully it could be 2011 on my next blog, so keep posted. chow for now.

nico ballack :D

well i got my car and the name is nico ballack had to put something russian in there , i love the car its great lil run round. absolutely dabby dozie. so that will make me bankrupt for the rest of my life but least i love it. so thaddy my darling man :D came over in novmber and left not long ago, i just miss him so very much, its starting to hurt, im hoping to see him in feb, hopefully , if i can work and get the money, really not looking forward to work as i aint worked in 2/3 months and i just feel used like a calling ard, they suck and i will leave as soon as i can. :(. but that the least of my problem, im actually happy and that shouldnt get me down, my best friend is coming back from uni this month on the 20th and it will actually be nice, loads of happy faces and time to get the drink on, we have gone through the motions and seen what its like to be apart and her to live the uni experiacne and of course there are going to be times that are hard but we all pulled through and hopfully we can carry on with the voddy shots. so i am excited for that and for crimbo and new year i hope im not working or i shall proceed to kick them where it hurts. and lets hope a very good new year from this, and santa aint put on to much weight lol. well i shall do a crimbo vlog and then it shll be new years my love ones. cxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxx

whats been happening rio!

well i can tell you, sorry its been such a long time since the last blog, just been majourly busy with college, not work persay, just general things and a big factor could be lazyiness. so first of all, my man is coming down on the 18th of november, and to be honest i couldnt be happier, i know i only seen him in august, but i felt so lost without him, im thankful that i can actually dream about him. im just excited to be around him, i forget everything and just concentrate on the beauty before me. (call me soppy or a twat) but thats what i think. lol so that over and done with, next is college, its been so amasing that i actually get excited to go to the lesson, its something i can definetly relate, and what better way in doing a course when you enjoy it. i have really nice friends at college i mean so what if im the baby. just have to be more machore lol. i mean mike was the first person i met and he's like 40+ well not old like in 50's but say mummies age, anyway i just feel accepted by them, they take me for who i really am, only because they have know me what im giving lol, so yeah college = great. now, work, work is shite anyway, not working till september, couldnt actually give a damn, i dont like them, i feel like i shouldnt be there, especially when there this one person who thinks so highly of herself that no one else should matter, she makes me feel so small sometimes. im only human friends in general. i love my friends, even the ones that i cant physically see, but they are still near y heart, i have room for everyone, i will defend anyone of them. i can do that for sure. i have been making myself busy and been going out alot, having lil camp fires and just chilling and all sorts of things. so it makes the lonliness go away. i think we all have some connection that is on the same level. but its just fu to be with people. i hate being alone and wen i do i think about things i should change or keep the same. my mum says friends come and go, that might be true, but until that happens then im sticking to my guns, my friends know who they are and if they choose to stay in my life the i will make a bleddy effort to keep it that to. but for now ladies and gents that my mumble. shall be more better at this, but nice to talk. chow for now. bumchums, over and out.

sunny holland

well i have been to holland to see my boyfriend and i had super amasing fun. good times i really did. loved being there, therewas also another reason why that was good i came back to suprise to of my best friends on there birthday and the faces were prices :) loved every second of it the great to nights ever. and now im chiling been working a lot but have to get some drinking sessions in beofree stupid september comes which to soon :(. feel like i could have done more, felt i didnt live to many exspectations for this summer , you know, one of the thing i have to get in to my cycle is making more of an effort with everyone. and that i wont forget any of my friends i really wont, the ones that are very imporntant to are either going up country or working and shizzle, i just feel so lonely going to cambourne. i wish we could have one more year to have fun , i wish time could stop and we could never grow up and go to uni, just get drunk and act like nothing matters. i wish we knew each other a long long time a go. but we deal with what we got. just dont them to go :( xxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxx

its almost time

well with two days to go until im on dutch ground ive been washing clothes to see what i want to take , im very excited also sad because im missing my best friends birthdays, and this one the big 18 and im missing it. i guess that how life gets you, , but i been wanting to see my man for ages, its just very annoying that its on a friends birthday. but my mum will be there so hopefully that will be ok, but i know she will be fine because she got her friends family and boyfriend. so it will be cool. so yeah just to check in on the packing situation, there is none. lol packing means discisions and i not made any yet. so til saturday i still got to decode what to take lol. well i shall blog after i come back which is the 15/16 of august. so shall see you then bloggers. if i have tyime i will try and find the time to blog in bewteen packing and whilst on holiday but dont count on it lol love you guys xxxxxxxxx

relaxy taxi

lol been watching friends with momma and i just love that programme tis amasing. hope you ugys are doing well. i am about to get ready to go down town and see what my current account is looking like then buggering off to work lol ha xxxx so before i go i will tell you that i will be doing a blog before i go to holland hehe lol then a full report when i get back woohhoooo cya bloggers

am i excited or what :D

well only a week and 2/3 days till i go to holland to see my man :D im really excited ive missed so much and we get to spend our 1 year aniversary together, which he said is all up to him and its going to be romatic, i cant wait, the only scared thing im worried about is trhe flying lol but i need to get over that. finally i get to see him again and be with him for a while now. everyone says that long distance relationships never work, well in my defence there are things i could have done that shouldnt of happened that happened in the past, and im willing to forget because i can. as this is something i really dont want to give up . i really do love him and i know he feels the same about me and so i know i have to make this work and i will. since the last time ive been bad or drunk i should i have really thought about what i should be doing different as a person. i have needed to change things that make me feel like a better person and that it can maske the realtionship work and im willing to work at it. some of these things are nothing to do with it, but i feel that it can make me happy as a person. so for one im really want to stop the juice because although i do it at social gatherings it not me and although i get intised i can not do this, it makes me guilty , i dont want to lie about it, so i havent had juice since friday and i want it to stay that way, this is something that i really want to give a go and that i will make me happy and healthier. the othert things that im willing to cut down is the drink as im a sucker for hangover sometimes and its make ashamed of what ive done because of that drunkeness and i really sdont want to keep going down that path. and im also from this day forward am not going to get so drunk that im so clingy to my friend, i really dont want to be that person. and i want to prove to a certain blonde person that i can go down a streaight and narrow path even if they think that boring, well to me i have a boyfriend and i really dont want to riun what we have. so if this is what its take for me to be happy then thats whati will do. and no one can have a say on it excpet support me and be happy for me. so yeah these last couple of days and weeks been thinking on ahow be a better person and i only really realised that i should change from the other day and im not daying that event was a bad event it was a great night, but i just dont want to keep doing what i always do. well i feel like im rambling on which i am , but i will seee ya xx

whataya want from me !

whataya want from me? is the question im asking . lol nothing serious just a song from the one and only adam lambert american idol who was the winner of 2009 i believe, i love that song says a lot of things just dont give up is a strong message. some time i feel like giving up but i know i cant becuase a great bf and great friends who love me for being just me no matter how dipsy or blond i can be they still will be there to pick up the peices for me. its all about working it out and thats what is shall be, this message may seem pointless to whom reads itr but im letting it out.

well its all going good

so really the last i spoke was a long time a go, i finally got a nice job and so i can finally get my driving done lol, one stressing point i have to make is , you really truely know who your mates are , just because of one event all hell breaks loose and it really does but now it just the fact that they never were friends in the first place but i know i can move on with my real friends who i love so so much, and now very soon i get to see my bf yayyyyyyyyyyyy, i actually really cant wait im excited so bad hehehehehe and i get to see my oma too, but there is one massive down fall and that is i miss two of my best friends birthdays and that REALLY SUCKS with a capital S. :( , but i know deep down she will be ok because she has a man now and as much as i am proud of her i know that it will work and they can be happy. well i better get ready to go out :d will make more of an apperance x

to some up the days i've missed

well so far i have been majour busy, and that includes my mum going away to stroud, sleeping over my mates house with a gang of friends getting drunk and what-not, then monday getting pissed in a field with bbq with some other mates, my best mate to sleep round my from monday to wednesday then back to college footy on the thursday, mummy home already , friday 5 hour exam, saturday do nothing, today i've got a cup final game against penzance. this would be our last game, we already finsinshed top off the league so we want to finish top of the cup. tomorrow is the continuation of my 10 hour exam followed by tuesday, then no more photography until i set my exibition. so thats it so far, so have a great day. speak soon .

sums up life

FAMILY, FRIENDS, BOYFRIEND, COLLEGE (TO A DEGREE) t.A.T.u and other music, but really to sum up everything. my best friend NAOMI NANCARROW. :D xXx

im a big big girl

im a big big girl, in a big big world, its not a big big thing if you leave me, but i do do feel, that i do do will, miss you much, miss you much, outside is now raining, and tears fall from my eyes, why did it have to happen, why did it all have to end, i have your arms around me, like fire, but when i open my eyes, your gone. im a big big girl, in a big big world, its not a big big thing if you leave me, but i do do feel, that i do do will, miss you much, miss you much,

lend a hand

lend a hand, doesnt take much to lend a hand to someone , but many people are selfish. im talking about this topic, because i was in need of a hand , a silly thing but still i wanted a hand, they could see i was struggling with the work but they were only concerned about themselves, which is rude, in the same class doing the same work and we should all work together, but its all about being the highest in the class and succseeding and seeing your peers stoop to the bottom, this what i hate about people wanting everything, nothing meant to be shared. but that my rant because i finally managed to do my best and hopfully if will be up to standards, . goshhhhhhhh

more brain thinking. :P

so i sit here again, thinking about the day that went on. and i realize that things dont last forever, but when they do you just have to grab hold of it and make it that little bit longer, i suppose what i mean is that, i connected with a friend in which we havent been all that close because of some reasons here and there, but it only takes a stupid car journey for 5mins and then things change to something good. but im not going to hold my breath because i know that they think they are powerful and strong because of this four-wheeled posession they have. its rediculous, but meh who cares . i know all my friends around me and that they love me very much and i love them so much too its unreal. so its all good. on todays lil topic i would say , girls rubgy is in order lol and lets get fit !!!!!!!

here drinking my VK :)

so im here drinking my boozy VK and thinking about all the good times aswell as the bad times, i come to realise that when you finally find someone or a special one you can relate to friend wise, you really can relate, the thing is with having a best friend (as they call them) is that you can 100% say anything you want, whether its the most boring do -care about topic or the most amasing thing you will ever say, you know that the first person to find out about these stupist or most profound things are your best friend. because it doesnt matter if its lame or silly, they WILL listen to you, friends mean they will cry with you, laugh with you, drink with you, be with you when your most afraid, be with you when your going to your first interview, go with you to get a pregnancy test, but most of all be with you when no one can!!!! friends mean forever, and forever it shall be. if you make it forever it can be forever. to my best friend i say: no matter what may happen, throughout life's twists and bends, i'll always be here for you, because we're best friends. and i mean it, on that note i bid you readers farewell for tonight. :)

there comes a time in ones life !!!

hi all, i am going to write about somethings that are on my mind. as i see it , there are times where you know you wont be there to enjoy life to the fullest with your friends or family, but its not about being there, its about being with them when you know they wont be there. treat everyday as your last, make it worth someone while. if not yours then someone you love. im at a stage in my life where loved ones will go up in the world and sometimes you feel there is no one left to talk with, because that special one you connect is doing something else. we have to except these changes in life, if we dont , dont expect to get treated like royalty. everyone goes a different, its just that i havent found the right path yet. or atleast it still next to me. my friends are moving to better there future, doesnt mean their out of life now, but if we dont make the effort then, the effort will not come to you. so i am taking everyday as its my last with the people i love. even if you celebrate it by drinks >>> or just being with them and having fun >>> its all about the here and now !!!!!!!!

a more productive post :P

ok, so i thought i better start my first post in a more productive manner, rather than the piss take one i did the other day.

so really this is all new for me, and i honestly havent got used to it all, but i shall keep trying, so i shall start mumbling on about pointless things and see what happens, well first of all your probs wandering why i have my name tagged as ' the sad life of a t.A.T.u fan' simply because i am a massive fan more like obsessive...... but who really is bothered. but as you can see i have added a picture of them, so is to some extent of how i feel about them haha :P

but enough of that, i shall be on here talking about things that i feel is appropriate, (in my case everything). so dont be afraid to read :P.

spasibo

hi blog buddies !!!

let the blogging begin!!!!!!!