am i excited or what :D

well only a week and 2/3 days till i go to holland to see my man :D im really excited ive missed so much and we get to spend our 1 year aniversary together, which he said is all up to him and its going to be romatic, i cant wait, the only scared thing im worried about is trhe flying lol but i need to get over that. finally i get to see him again and be with him for a while now. everyone says that long distance relationships never work, well in my defence there are things i could have done that shouldnt of happened that happened in the past, and im willing to forget because i can. as this is something i really dont want to give up . i really do love him and i know he feels the same about me and so i know i have to make this work and i will. since the last time ive been bad or drunk i should i have really thought about what i should be doing different as a person. i have needed to change things that make me feel like a better person and that it can maske the realtionship work and im willing to work at it. some of these things are nothing to do with it, but i feel that it can make me happy as a person. so for one im really want to stop the juice because although i do it at social gatherings it not me and although i get intised i can not do this, it makes me guilty , i dont want to lie about it, so i havent had juice since friday and i want it to stay that way, this is something that i really want to give a go and that i will make me happy and healthier. the othert things that im willing to cut down is the drink as im a sucker for hangover sometimes and its make ashamed of what ive done because of that drunkeness and i really sdont want to keep going down that path. and im also from this day forward am not going to get so drunk that im so clingy to my friend, i really dont want to be that person. and i want to prove to a certain blonde person that i can go down a streaight and narrow path even if they think that boring, well to me i have a boyfriend and i really dont want to riun what we have. so if this is what its take for me to be happy then thats whati will do. and no one can have a say on it excpet support me and be happy for me. so yeah these last couple of days and weeks been thinking on ahow be a better person and i only really realised that i should change from the other day and im not daying that event was a bad event it was a great night, but i just dont want to keep doing what i always do. well i feel like im rambling on which i am , but i will seee ya xx