nearly the end of a year

hello, strangers , its been seven months since I last posted, and judging on that time I was about to move in to my bf house, and everything changed from then on, a lot has gone on and it seriously would take the worlds life time to explain im sure in future posts I will explain, but on a good note me and my bf are still happily in love and we are still living together hoping to get our own place next year some time, all I can say is that in the last 7 months I have learnt an awful lot. responsibility, listening and learning and grasping a sense of life.

to bullet point topics to be discussed in future post:

• love
• money
• friends
• jobs
• family
• cars
• trust

and so much more, each bullet point will be gone into such detail, its overwhelming

 but for now I just want the idea of settling back in to a routine to which I can hopefully stick to.
 because Christmas and new years is around the corner and its about to get a whole lot better, I so happy where I am now, couldn't ask for it any other way. life makes you who you are, so live it
 till next time
take care
look after one another
xxx

things are looking up, face them fears

hey anons,
hope all is well,
so last week was a scary time but you have to support and believe everything will work out and it is , fingers crossed it still does. but yeah things are looking up.

im happier, and there are progressive steps that are in place, and it means me moving into my boyfriends house, which i have never left my home and yes that is daunting but im at a new chapter in my life and i want my bf involved and he with me, you have to take a plunge, and thats what were doing, i do beleive this is the best way around it, i know we said we were going to both move out in to our own place but there is no rush. think of it as a trial.

so should be happening after my college term, as i have to hand in a dissertation, and really need to focus on that right now,
i do have more things to talk about like certain topics but all good things happen to those who wait,
so thank you for reading,
and will catch up with you soon this was just a message to say im better than i was last week.
peace take care.
rhiannon

Hoping

hey everyone, hope your all ok and doing fine.
im have been on top of the world, and everything has been going great , but you know when you want something to work out and your not sure if its going to. that what im going through right now, you see back along in my previous messages i was figuring out a few things and things were put in place for the future, and i mean everything has a purpose, a reason in life, a place for it to go.

i just really hope our plans can reach its end goal.

i very rarely get a deep pit feeling in my gut when something is wrong or may not go to plan and i had then 2 months ago when our plans got put aside whilst things were being rearranged, i dont blame that person at all. because he has to be happy, thats all i want is him to be happy, and i know he wont ever give up unless he has to.

he starts his first day of training tonight at his new job, and i have been hoping that this is the one to get us back on track for our plans. i worry about all the possible things to happen, constantly wanting to know if he is ok, because i dont want him to give up before he has began. i dont like it when he is sad about these things.

i write this because i need to get it out and dont want him to worry, i sometimes hope he reads these, but im not sure.

i am always proud of him. always.................................................... for all eternity

just want everything to be ok
this all i can write at this time
rhiannon
the concerned and worried gf

Life will always have its ups and downs, it how yo deal with them that counts............

hello anonymous earthlings,
its been just over a month since my last post, and It was definitely let on a high, but even things in the sky have to come down eventually.

so as you know me and my boyfriend were taking a plunge in to the committed world of moving in together, but some glitches along the way, and so it means just taking our time and taking it all in to be in a better place.

but not all things are down I have now become involved in volunteering and what to set up a young girls football team, as where I live there isn't much to do for the younger generation, so unders 10 girls football team is what im aiming for, I have had a couple of meetings and they have gone well, meeting up with some governors who will allow to put a pitch together and really set things on fire. so fingers crossed that it will work out.

time management is the key to this being successful,  but also to not to forget anyone, I have a lot on my plate like:

boyfriend
work
college
family
friends
youtube
blogging
football
exercising
volunteering

across a week it can be draining, but I need for the people around me to understand that it all adds up to the final picture,i have always been the sort of person who sticks a lot on her plate, and always get stuck into things like helping others, I wish I could help all. but there enough time.

all it takes is patience, because I will always be the same person but with a big workload, I will always be there for you, and will support you in everything you do, I may get angry or annoyed but I only want the best for you and I care to much for it to go to waste.
I love you and always will
xxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxx

im happy and i will share this with you :)

hey everyone, hope your all well, i have been left to my own devices for a whole week since i last wrote to you guys, and a lot can happy in that time, the last blog was about how i feel with people intervening in my life, and it got me down, but i got my message across and now i feel so much better, by the time it gets to late june early july, i will be moving in a house with my amazing boyfriend and im just counting down the days, we have everything sorted when it comes to bills and furniture,

it will be an adventure for the both of us and we shall be going through new and very different experiences, but the best will be doing it together, and no matter what situation we get in, its certain that we shall talk about it all. once them papers are signed its forever.
and thats what i cant wait for .

a new experience is what i aim for , strive for, can do what we like when we like and we are our own entertainment,

this will be the first time im away living from my parents house, and yes its scary but i know i am so ready for this new chapter of my life,

i have the best family, friends and boyfriend to depend on that it wont matter how bad or good it will get i will always no matter what have all there support and i cant ask for anything more than that, its nice when your close net friends can all experience it together, were all happy in our little lives when we all get together its just amazing and fun and GREAT.

i still have to travel back and forth but its ok, its mean i have to see everyone im only 10/20 minutes away, so moving out of bodmin yeah is a big deal as i have always lived there, but what i have learnt that love has no boundaries and its for the one i love, and i will go anywhere in the world where my love is, and i know i can say the same for him towards me :) , so today i definitely felt happy and looking forward to what is to come , sometimes i wish it would hurry up, but its not going anywhere, 5/6 months for us to save money and achieving ours goals before we move into our place.

and they will be achieved. i believe in us.
so that is it for now, will keep you updated on everything,
thank you for reading,

one more thing i heard on a song today these words mean a lot.

"i cant and wont be defined, i live my own life, im free to be nothing but me!!!"

take care peace
rhiannon

Why Do They Have To Be So Involved

hey everyone,
this is another rant again im sorry this is the only place I feel I can come to let it all out. although I can talk to people all around me, I just find it easier to talk to a blank page.

makes sense to me,

so a new year a lovely start, with my amazing boyfriend, of nearly 11 months and couldn't be happier. we have been talking about new things for the future like moving in together in a little coach house, and to be honest the place looks really nice and everything is the right price and great for us,

just a few things that are getting stuck in the way of our happiness.

one is money, which is the case for everything, if only it grew on trees, then there wouldn't be such a problem.
 Basically me and my boyfriend need to earn so much money a month according to a certain family member for them to be happy and for us to be able to cope.

the second problem I have is an over caring and protective mother, don't get me wrong she has been the best mum anyone can ask for, she's a best friend and someone who has never let me down all been there when I have needed her most, always looks out for me.
 leads and guides the way so I don't get it wrong and helps me make my choices, support in everything, but then there comes a price in supporting me in everything.

I have now become scared at telling her things, im 21 and scared of sharing stuff to my mum, I hate and she does to because what mum wants their own child to be scared of them and not share anything.

well I eventually told her that me and my boyfriend have an opportunity to move in with each other in around 6-8 months, and I told her the ins and outs of the place prices and everything.

but the response I get back is yep ok , to me that says its not happening its a pipedream,

but then I told her more details about and shes asking me to get a list of all bills and such , yep ok that's fair enough, I get her a list, and still. she is like you need to earning £1300/£1400 a month each.

right ok, so that basically means a job that can provide that sort of money, ok so I go back to my boyfriend say that we need to weigh our options we need jobs that can pay.

my boyfriend is being so good about things trying his hardest to make these things work, getting more ours at his original job, and trying to look for another that will pay even more if all else fails,

so I go back to mum and I just think what ever I say to her about what my boyfriend is doing it not ever good enough for my mum,


and that really does hurt me, I know parents only want the best for there children, but what she has to understand is that I really love this guy, and hes not going to hurt me use me or anything that would hurt me,

she worries about a lot of things , I have to realise that she will always be like this when it comes to me doing things in life.

but now its getting to the point where I feel like an approval is something I will never get, now I have to try my hardest just to get one, but I don't want to change my bf just to suit her, that will never happen.


I love my boyfriend just the way he is,
my mum and partner know that my boyfriend loves me very much and just say that if he loves you then he will do anything and everything to be the best boyfriend to protect me and keep me safe financially,

and yeah that's fair, every parent want that for their daughter.

I just don't like it when she wants him to change everything you know its disrespectful to me,


she always says that I'm a motivator and wont let anything get in the way till I succeed ,

my boyfriend has plans to do his driving test before we move in together, what more does my mum need and want, im trying to do the best that I can in trying to fulfil my future, but my bf is trying so much harder,

the only way my mum will accept this is he does what he has set out get a car, a job that pays over £1000 ,

and I tell the world now, my BOYfriend will succeed in all these things I truly do believe he will prove my mum wrong,

don't get me wrong babe she loves you, but she only wants the best for me,

your already the best for me, and we can only get stronger.

rant over.
peace Rhiannon.

Hello 2014

Hello everyone hope you had a great new years, this is the time where we all say new year new start, doesn't have to be like that, just carry on strong, but we all make resolutions but do we always stick to them, last year my resolution was to go without chocolate I last 8/9 months not bad lol this year my new years resolution is going to be without alcohol, I mean who really needs it, it just makes you an asshole and your head the next morning is just horrendous haha, yes I had a hangover the next day, I wasent an ass hole, but alcohol is a devils drink, but needless to say as the last night for drinking it was a epic night, was with all my loved one , great company great food , great banter, great boyfriend. was truly amazing,
here a little photo of the shanigans.

so heres to another new year :) may it bring you happiness, love and all the rest of the stuff that makes a new year great.
don't hate on another. love and accept
peace
rhiannon