Feeling Lonely

hey guys, I know I just sent out a rather happy and upbeat video and your quite right I was upbeat and happy but sometimes I feel lonely, even when im surrounded by many people who I love.


I never quite got to grips with feeling lonely and still having virtually everything not in a spoilt way but I mean as in people, family and such. but even if your life is crazy hectic, there are times lately where I still feel so disconnected with the world and feel completely alone.

now my life schedule is busy continuously whether I be at work, college, football, seeing my boyfriend, family and other things that go with it, but as I sit here in my bed, I am still very much alone and that the thing I cant get my head around, why can someone like myself be very busy but so lonely. 

I wish I had the answers to these things. I guess a lot of things have and need to change. I know before friends come and go, people move on and live a completely different life. moving in, babies etc.

at the minute that's not for me. I have a lovely and perfect boyfriend, he is everything and more for me, he is not the cause of my problem at all.

when we see each other its great no doubt about that.

I often turn my main concern to my friends or lack of friends actually. we go through life and many friends come and go through with you and when it comes down to the actual fact I can only count a few friends on one hand that actually are decent to me, don't take me for granted or become my friend when necessary.

one hand to count a life time of friends that have come and gone its totally crazy but so real, I guess my message is that life is precious and when you meet people they either in it for liking you for yourself or they like what you have and see what they can benefit from you.

I will always remember that factor.

I know what I have and will always cherish it, friends family and boyfriend.

so don't get trapped in the place I was. happiness needs to be earned I feel, and if you work for it then you can get everything out of it in the right way.

sometimes there is no one out there for except anonymous people through the internet. you guys who ever you are that look at these blogs, thank you for taking an interest and know that you guys keep me going through this website.

there is a way forward.
so thank you.
peace, Rhiannon